Life Without You

Saturday morning, I woke up and put on my funeral dress; a dress I have worn many times over the past few years, whether it be to attend a funeral or to sing at a funeral. I never dreamed I would put this dress on for YOUR funeral. But I did. I got up and gathered the strength to get myself ready to attend your funeral. The hours of your visitation, funeral, and gravside were some of the most difficult of my life. But I made it through them. Over the past few days, I've been trying to figure out what life without you will be like. Its still something I'm working through. I miss you so much and its hard to think, that you aren't here anymore. Simple things, like game night will be different and big things like who do I go to when my heart is breaking will be different. I'm learning that you left me in good hands. Chris, Ryan, Bashan, and Anna are making sure I'm not without older siblings. You have left me in good hands but they are not your hands. Its something I will have to adjust to. Life without you, is something I will have to adjust to. Its a day by day process; sometimes an hour by hour process. I miss you but rejoice that your faith has now been made sight and you are resting in the arms of your sweet Jesus.