I Have The Best Sisters

Somehow, God saw fit to bless me with two amazing sisters. We are step-sisters but sisters none the less. Our parents have been married for as long as I can remember so to me they always have been and always will be my sisters. We may not always have the tightest relationship but I know that no matter what they will always be there for me and I for them. I am blessed to be the baby. Tiff is 6 years older than me. Well, almost. Her birthday falls 7 days after mine. And let me tell you how much fun it was to have to share our birthdays with each other. Probably more fun for me being the the younger sister and it wasn't much fun for me if that tells you anything about Tiff's feelings about it :) Kim is 10 years older than me and is by far the most driven and grounded of the 3 of us. A trait I so admire in her. On that subject Dad says that his 3 girls have 3 distinct personalities and I can see that. Like I said Kim is the grounded and driven of the 3 of us. Whether that was her God given personality or if it came from having Tiff and me for younger sisters I dont know. Kim has made a great life for herself and I will always be chasing after her accomplishments. Tiff is the free spirit. She always has had a hunger for life. She has also made a great life for herself and has a beautiful family. And here I am the baby, chasing after my eldest sisters accomplishments yet with hunger for life like my middle sisters but on fire. The thing that the three of us have in common is how we rally around each other when one of us is down and broken. In unexpected blessings, in sickness, and now in divorce, we always are there to help one another. Sometimes, its a hug, sometimes its standing at a hospital bed, and sometimes its a sweet post on facebook. I love my sisters and I couldnt imagine walking through life without them. On a specific note, my sister Kim wrote one of the sweetest comments ever on my facebook. I had posted a piece of flair that said "happiness is being divorced from an idiot" with the simple phrase "need I say more" beside it. My sister Kim wrote the following comment that brought me to tears. "sorry you have to go through it but glad it is almost over! You are strong, young and have so much life to live. Surround yourself with people that will build you up..not tear you down! You deserve better!"

Oh what powerful words

Jesus Paid It All

I hear the savior say

Thy strength indeed is small

Child of weakness watch and pray

Find in me thine all and all

Cause Jesus paid it all

All to him I owe

Sin had left a crimson stain

He washed it white as snow

Lord now indeed find

Thy pow'r and thine alone

Can change a leper's spots

And melt the heart of stone

Cause Jesus paid it all

All to him I owe

Sin had left a crimson stain

He washed it white as snow

And when before the throne

I stand in him complete

Jesus died my soul so save

My lips shall still repeat

Cause Jesus paid it all

All to him I owe

Sin had left a crimson stain

He washed it white as snow

Oh praise the one who paid my debt

And raised this life up from the dead

Oh praise the one who paid my debt

And raised this life up from the dead

Life Isnt Neat

Again another day without lyrics but I was chatting with a friend and we were dreaming together. I made the comment to him that we should both find the love of our lives and both live happily ever after. He agree that this would be a great plan. I then made the following statement that I feel needs repeating "if only life were that simple there is no happily ever after life doesnt get handed to you in a nice neat pretty package its messy and crazy and wild its tough, heartbreaking, and it sucks some times but thats what makes it beautiful". My prayer is that we are both able to find someone to share our lives with. But I also pray that we will have the strength, courage and wisdom to commit to someone our lives.

Taking That Leap Of Faith

Not just lyrics to a song today. A couple of weeks ago I had the opportunity to go ziplining. It was an amazing experience. Looking back on the experience I can see a lesson to be learned. The experience consisted of several platforms where we would hook our harness on to the zipline then run and jump off the platform and let our harness slide us along the zipline from one platform to the other. It was so much fun. Then we came to a platform where the guides told us we would be ziplining backwards and upside down. Yes we would have to stand on the edge of the platform, lean back and let go and fall and trust the harness would catch us. This picture is me doing that. It required complete trust in the harness. I had no control. I had to lean back and trust that the harness would catch me. The experience was amazing. Isnt that how our walk with God is sometimes. Life can be going great and then he asks us to stand on the ledge of the unknown and fall back and trust that he will catch us. We all face trying times, mine just happens to be divorce. We are left with no choice but to fall back and trust that God will catch us. The trials may be hard, dark, and insanely scary but Our Savior has overcome the world so we have nothing to fear. Easier said than done, I know. But ultimately the joy of falling and my sweet Jesus catching me is a joy like nothing else, something very worth the fall.